Hi everyone, I'm not a big deal or anything but I have a lot to say and a lot to vent about. This will serve its purpose. The people in my life are sick of hearing me out about all the things that drive me crazy. At this point they have become the problem. My mother is the hugest problem in my life. She does nothing but criticize the type of mother I am. She says I am a terrible mother and its my fault that my son is the way he is. I highly doubt that. She missed 2 years of his life and she returns and thinks she knows him. She is out of her mind. So finally when he acts up towards her she blames me. She says I am not fit for motherhood and should seriously consider giving up my children for adoption (for her to adopt them). Seriously if she was such a great mother, wouldn't I be a better person? Wouldn't I be that perfect mother she thinks I should be.

Then money is another pain in my ass with her. She feels like I owe her so much. She has helped me out when I have been in really bad spots and I am so grateful and now she is harassing me for my money every time I get a little. Every time I have money she reminds me. I owe this and that, etc. I don't need help with my finances, I am fine thank you. She feels that I have to be reminded to be responsible. Please, she is the one that cant even make her house payments yet she spends her weekends at the casino. Yeah, someone needs to get off her soapbox. Sick of it!!!

The only good thing going on in my life right now is this great guy I met a few weeks ago. I am meeting him for the first time tomorrow and I am so super excited. I hope it goes well. Though I know he will only complicate my life, it will be worth it. He seems lots of fun. Hope it goes well. I haven't felt like this about a guy in a very long time. I didn't know I could feel like this anymore.

Until tomorrow....

Just Lola!